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well, here i am again becoming the blogger i hate.  i can't even tell you the last time i blogged, but i can tell you the last time i thought about blogging.  obviously it's about 5 minutes ago, right?  good grief all of this brilliant knowledge and i can't even make myself write it out.  what a shame, what a shame.  this year, well i guess the next 11 months i am going to make a constant effort to get out on paper/blog what is going on and what's up with bstew.  believe it or not i have wanted to blog for the longest but have shied away because i have tried to take on a new way of thinking/living over the past year and a half...so let me catch you up because i know you want to know.

i started out 2012 in the beautiful state of colorado.  little did i know that 9 short months later i would seemingly be back to square one looking for a new direction in life.  it was about the middle of august when i realized that the world of minor league baseball wasn't for me.  what a tough realization to deal with right?  i wanted to love everything about where i was both personally and professionally, but i just couldn't get a stranglehold on that.  so here i am in february of 2013 trying to make ends meet by working odd and hourly jobs wherever they may be.  do i care? a little. do i think things will turn around? i sure hope! do i have a plan? no not really and i think the best part is i'm not ashamed to admit it.  what i do know though is that i have a core group of people that believe in me, not necesserily myself at the moment that keep me pressing on and seeking all that is good in this life. 

my goal for the future of my blog/writing is to open up more, speak out more on what i truly believe, and write exclusively from the heart.  it may be a bit controversial at times, it may be off at times, and it may even be a bit ugly at times, but i want to be a stronger me from this point forward and things like this help me do so. 

i have began to evolve more and more since my departure from the time i left colorado and i truly intend on evolving more as my path less traveled continues. 

if i've learned anything over the past year though, it is that i am a southerner to the core!!

peace, love, and live it