i got da best fam

i love my family and i have the best family in the world.  i would not change them for the world.  they bring me joy, love, frustration, laughter, peace, anger(at times), etc.  and when i say i have the best family in the world, i'm talking from mama and daddy to aunt and uncle to cousins.  i love every single one of them.

this past weekend i got to spend time with my whole family.  as you know it was easter weekend so i was able to go back home and celebrate that awesome day that Jesus Christ rolled away the stone with all of my family.

so my mom's side of the family is who i spent the afternoon and evening on sunday with, and let me tell you i could spend 24 hours 7 days a week with them.  simms, sara scott, uncle g, aunt dana, my tanmama they all just are such a joy to be around.  if i want girl advice or any advice at all let me tell you simms and sara scott are right there to tell me what's up.  i think i may laugh the hardest when i'm around them.  not only that but i learn so much from them with there honesty and bluntness.  what a great trait to have when you need someone to shoot you strait.  aunt dana is always there talking about how i can get into the school system and what i need to do to become a future principal or administrator which has become more and more of an option.  and i can always count on uncle g to agree on how bad the ole miss baseball team is playing or how i can't stand the st. louis cardinals.  and my sweet grandmother (tanmama is what i call her) has such a special place in my heart for the push she gives me in my schoolwork and job hunt.  she has such a kind heart and a want to for all of her grandchildren to succeed. i admire her so much.

okay so on to daddy's side.  it's like night and day when it comes to this side of the family.  when we all sat together at church on sunday, i'm sure half of the church was like "oh goodness, what's the stewart clan gonna pull of this time?"  it's different because apart from my sister dorie, it's all guys and we all like to be loud and make people laugh (each other especially).  i don't have the time or the energy right now to break down all of this side of the family since my dad's side is a bit larger than mamas.  nonetheless, everytime we get together it is a treat in itself.  and recently one girl has been added as one cousin just got married, and as of friday night another one is tying the knot.  exciting times in the stewart family.

now for my immediate family, that's a different blog for a different day.  once again i could write a book on how much each family member means to me: mom, dad, adam, and dorie.  wow is all i can say.  i'm so lucky to be able to consider each and every one of them my best friends.  i can share anything with them, and i know they will support, criticize, and help me with anything i'm going through.

i am so blessed to have the family that i do.  sometimes it takes a weekend like this past one to actually realize that.  i didn't even really want to go back home this weekend but am SOO glad i did.  it's these little things in life that are so great and i am so grateful for these people that have been implanted in my life!

i hope each and everyone of you reading has a family that's close like mine and if not.....there is always room for one more in the stewart/haguewood clan!  we all know you'd love us!


who wouldn't want to be a part of this??

deep breath...and exhale

patient is defined as bearing provocation, annoyance, misfortune, delay, hardship, pain, etc., with fortitude and calm and without complaint, anger.  having patience is the act of doing the previously described definition and man is this tough sometimes for me.

i like to consider myself a pretty patient person.  i don't mind having to wait to get certain things but more recently i would have to say i'm growing more and more impatient.  so here i am 3 weeks from officially having my master's degree and still have no job lined up.  this has been a growing concern for weeks and months now and i in turn am getting very irritated and impatient.  it seems like every job i apply for, i'm not getting a response and i want answers.  little do i know about my future and i struggle with it every day.  i keep telling myself there is a reason you aren't hearing back from these jobs you have applied for, God has a plan for you.  that plan seems so distant right now. 

sometimes it just feels as though the whole world is against you and the only thing you can do is wait it out.  in undergrad i was under the impression that i was going to graduate, have the girl picked out that i was going to marry, and have a job lined up(being a big time investment banker).  well i've heard it all along that if you want to make God laugh just tell him your plans.  well good grief i'm sure the Lord is rotfl (rolling on the floor laughing) at what i had planned out.  going back to school is not something i had planned out, but it was the best thing that has happened to me.  my job still situation seems bleak but at least i have an idea of what the Lord wants me to do.  it's all about following His plan and this sometimes requires much patience.  this has been the case with me even though it feels like it will never end.  eventually i will land where the Lord wants me and what was meant for me but until then all i can do is ask Him for guidance and patience along the way.

to all, take a deep breath and exhale, the Lord knows and always has so let Him show you.